This Is Actually Happening
130: What if you had thoughts of harming those you love most?
Apr 16, 2019 · 38 min
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After coming to terms with her identity, a woman develops intrusive thoughts that consume her most important relationships. 

“People say you should always trust your gut feelings. But I couldn’t trust my gut feeling and I still can’t to this day, because to me a gut feeling is in turn thinking about hurting somebody else.”

Producer: Whit Missildine

Editor: Nigel Coutinho

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro

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