This Is Actually Happening
149: What if you committed child sexual abuse?
Feb 25, 2020 · 1 hr 6 min
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 “I misused my position of power to get my needs met…How is it that if we’re called by God to this ministry we could possibly do such a destructive thing?”

Producer/Editor: Nigel Coutinho, Stephanie Lepp, Whit Missildine

Content/Trigger Warnings: child sexual abuse, explicit language

Today's episode featured Gil Gustafson. This episode was originally produced by Stephanie Lepp at Reckonings, and adapted for This Is Actually Happening. You can find Reckonings wherever you listen, and at:

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Intro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper

Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro

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