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Personal journal podcast of an American gay guy who now resides in the great country of Australia. I talk about my life, the places I go to, the food I eat, or anything I think about.
Oct 24, 2021
#65: Coasting Through
I have moved back to the coast, started a new job, but it feels like I am unenthusiastic about life and my future plans. I haven't gone out and done much because of the COVID junk, but I should. But will I? Who knows… I'm just bored and tired lately. Photo is by Titus Aparici (@titusaparici) on UnSplash.
Sep 9, 2021
#64: Back to Civilisation
I am moving out of super-rural Victoria and back to a city—by myself. How am I going to handle this and what kind of mundane things will I be up to? We'll see, but the good news is that stuff will actually happen now. Cover picture is not mine. It is by Erda Estremera at Unsplash.
Jul 22, 2021
#63: Isolation Blues
I haven't been feeling great which has lead to many delays of this. Social isolation is driving me crazy and I am really tired of living in the middle of the country. I miss socialising. I just want to get out and do things! I also talk about the new car that I got. Also, I talk about music that I am making. Intro track is called "Away Scene" and will be available for purchase and/or download later in the year.
May 20, 2021
#62: Senseless / Spectrum
Today I am talking about my thoughts about arguing with my partner (and past partners) and how I've had a few people ask me lately if I am on the autism spectrum. I also talk about the strange thing I do in the mornings. I think I might have talked about that in the past, but want to hear it again? ;) Remember to do nice things for yourself! I hope everyone is doing well!
Apr 26, 2021
#61: Radio Silence
I talk about the misbalance between my personal and professional life. Basically, I talk about getting a new car and the little things happening to me.
Mar 23, 2021
Not even sure whether that title's a real word, but if not, that's okay. I talk about how I have almost gotten myself in trouble with my oversharing, how I never intended to become famous, and how I like my quiet life (for the most part). I talk about why I do this kind of thing too and why I am still chugging along. Complicated Noise is a work in progress as always… more like a never-ending testing ground. Visit it if you want to.
Mar 1, 2021
#59: Slowing the Pace
I'm slowing the pace of posting new episodes, officially this time. I'm too busy and work is consuming my life lately. I am stepping back from podcasting plans and simply planning for new episodes in the distant future. I also explain why it's not a 'good' or 'fun' thing to do anymore. I'm still hanging on though and still going to produce podcast episodes this year. See you all sooner or later.
Jan 15, 2021
#58: Hope for 2021
What are my plans for 2021 and what have I accomplished in 2020 despite all the craziness? I hope you have a really great year ahead!
Dec 17, 2020
#57: Australian Christmas
Happy holidays everyone, though I'm having a huge problem accepting that it's Christmas. It won't feel like Christmas unless it's cold and with family. Maybe I can go back to the USA next year? I talk about changes at work and what my plans are. Intro music: "Midwinter" by Dee Yan-Key
Nov 26, 2020
#56: Slow and Tired
I'm still struggling with allergies and I'm on meds that make me tired. In this one, I talk about family surprises, in-family bickering, and the importance of treating everybody with kindness.
Nov 5, 2020
#55: An Allergy to Politics
This episode contains complaints about allergy season, US politics (no firm result yet, but it's close), and I discuss my upcoming birthday plans a little. I hope all of you are safe from the COVID mess which is still a problem. Don't let down your guard!!!
Oct 15, 2020
#54: Musically Declined
I talk about my musical projects that are coming soon and how I struggle to share my creations with anybody because I feel like nothing's ever 'good enough'. I also talk about things that are happening with me lately.
Sep 17, 2020
#53: Busy Business
I've been away for a month, but I'm back and talking about what I've been up to over the past few weeks. I also chat about my website, privacy, and a few other things. Also, Cnoi.se is up. I'm using it mostly for a redirection service.
Aug 13, 2020
#52: No Great Shakes
Warning! This is rambling at its not-so-finest. I talk about my plans for the next few weeks, how COVID is affecting my plans, and a bit more thrown in. (Sorry, I can't remember!)
Jul 16, 2020
#51: Pleasantly Lonesome
I go back in time to talk about my lonesome childhood and how I am feeling in my adult life now. Many apologies for the sound quality. After 3 previous recordings, I decided to stop using my microphone and just to use the internal microphone of my Mac. I'm not sure if I will fix this or not.
Jun 26, 2020
#50: Change Crave
In this one, I discuss what's been keeping me busy, buying a house and moving away, liking yourself, adoption, how hard it is to break the 'manly' stereotype and how happy I am to seek help when needed. No longer posting on the blog on Idiologic.com. Look at Complicated Noise instead.
May 18, 2020
#49: Wax to Wane
I talk about what's been happening (or really, what hasn't been happening). I complain about shipping woes and buying stuff I don't really need. I'm also feeling a bit burnt out with podcasting, but I've still got a posting schedule until the beginning of next year. I'm going to keep posting new stuff until I've really had enough of this. Background music is from Portal 2. I'm also in the process of moving my weblog to Complicated Noise.
Apr 8, 2020
#48: Tread Carefully
It's been a while and after a few attempts, I'm back and talking about the effects of COVID19 on my personal life. I talk about the upcoming holidays, how I will be spending them, and my personal views about religion. I'm in the process of fixing the website up and I'll start streaming retro games at the end of the month. The links to my Twitch can be found at Complicated Noise.
Feb 28, 2020
I talk about how stressful everything is right now and how I'm feeling since I've been back. The audio quality is not that great. I probably should check these things before I record. ;)
Feb 13, 2020
#46: Back into Summer
I've been having some issues with my voice since I came back, so things are a little delayed. I briefly talk about the holidays back home in Texas, and getting back to Australia and what's going to happen this year. Oh, and I don't like summer. Did you know that ComplicatedNoise.com is almost kinda sorta working? You should visit. People with an account can access a few unpublished podcasts.
Dec 13, 2019
Happy holidays to the lot of you! In this one, I talk about what I've been doing and what I will be doing. Husband is visiting for a few weeks so I'm not posting another episode until next year. Thanks for listening to me babble over the year! Link to Post | Coffee
Dec 13, 2019
#44: Birthday Celebrations
I talk about my recent birthday and about my podcast being a mess while I'm here. There are other things that I talk about, but can't remember right now. I'm going to only post short episodes while I'm here. My next podcast episode will be short and will be the last one for the year. Link to Post | Coffee
Nov 28, 2019
#43: Thanks for Everything
I talk about getting to the USA and how I did not think I'd make it. I talk about my Thanksgiving plans, and a few other random things. Link to Post | Coffee
Nov 13, 2019
#42: Returning to the Origin
Before I fly back to the USA, I talk about my website development on complicatednoise.com, getting packed (and lack thereof), family issues back home, flying anxiety, what Australians think Texas is like (and what Texans think about Australia) and more. Recorded over 2 days. 18:15 starts the new day. Link to Post | Coffee
Oct 24, 2019
The pollen in the air is making my life miserable and keeping me inside way too much. In this episode, I was originally going to talk about Australian things that I don't like (but it didn't happen). I feel safer in Australia than I do in the USA. Bringing things back to the USA. My first sleep monitor results and how I was surprised by the results. I love statistics - that's why I'm happy to use it. My continuing work on the website and a few problems I may encounter while overseas. Need to chat with me, confidentially? Go for it! (Contains a few words that you might (or might not) want to repeat in front of your granny.) Link to Post | Coffee
Oct 10, 2019
#40: Pictures of You
What, in my opinion, is one of the best ways to connect with your partner? More photo shoots! I talk about what's been happening to my partner and me over the last few weeks. Link to Post | Coffee
Sep 19, 2019
#39: Unimpressive Numbers
I talk about my lack of sleep, getting a new mattress without making sure that it will fit in the bed frame, and the unimpressive statistics of my podcast and what effects it has on the future of my recording and website development. (Not quitting yet. I'm chugging along for the foreseeable future.) Link to Post | Coffee
Aug 21, 2019
I talk about the dream I had last night and how sleepy I am and also talk about my thoughts about religion in general, including my own beliefs and experiences. If you want to hear more, just let me know. Link to Post | Coffee
Aug 8, 2019
I've always thought that by having preferences of who I am attracted to was considered shallow, so I struggled talking about what I found attractive in other people, physically and mentally. I talk a little about my past relationships as well and why I dated them and what I love about my current partner. My throat is a little sore in this one and it's really noticeable at the end. Link to Post | Coffee
Jul 25, 2019
#36: Busy Bee
Super busy lately and kind of mentally disheveled. I talk about moving and being called a 'housewife' by the moving guys. (Wanted this to be short, since I'm depending on my mobile data now.) I'm also a little sad that my listener numbers are very small. Ideas anybody, before I stop caring? Link to Post | Coffee
Jul 12, 2019
I talk about my ongoing adventure with the doctor and my gastrointestinal system. Am I going to ignore the referral because my tests came back fine, or go anyway? I gently touch upon my one-year anniversary, having my husband come back, and what's been keeping me busy. Link to Post | Coffee
Jun 25, 2019
#34: Consoling Console
I talk about what's been stressing me lately such as work, my health, moving, traveling, and a lack of sleep. I also talk about my newest toys/gadgets, gaming online subscriptions, DLC, Nintendo Switch stuff, and virtual currency. Yeah, quite a grab bag here. Link to Post | Coffee
Jun 6, 2019
#33: Thrown into the Unknown
A lot of things are happening at once. Someone bought the house we've been living in and we have to move soon. We're also getting a new car and my partner's leaving for India for a month. My stress levels are through the roof! I spend most of this episode thinking about things and how my time here might be extended. I also talk about my new toys and new recording equipment. After the break, I talk about the car and that I'm also having some slight health issues as well which makes me a little sad. (Possible hospital stay coming up…) Link to Post | Coffee
May 23, 2019
#32: A Year of Podcasting
It's been one year since I posted my first episode of this podcast! A huge thank you for those of you who have been listening for this long! I talk about the future of this podcast, new equipment, and the redevelopment into Complicated Noise. I'm also developing a system to reward those of you who link to me. I also chat about what's happening lately and finally getting a new car. Link to Post | Coffee
May 10, 2019
#31: USA-Bound (in late 2019)
So, I've booked my trip back to the USA for about 10 weeks starting in November. I talk about my upcoming trip and my anxiety/stress levels with work. (This might seem like one of my 'forced' episodes because, well, it was. If I put it off, it was likely that I would get lazier and lazier.) I'm here though and that's something, right? Link to Post | Coffee
Apr 25, 2019
#30: Too Soon?
It's been about 5 days since I last recorded, so I stumble around a bit. I talk about my uneventful holidays and the next holiday on Thursday, ANZAC Day. Link to Post | Coffee
Apr 18, 2019
#29: Peep Show
Happy Easter to you! In this episode, I talk about my past Easters, what I'm planning to do this year, going back to the USA and my draft plans of what I'm going to do. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Apr 11, 2019
#28: Inferiority Complex
I talk about my inferiority complex and how it's both hindered me and what I've been doing to overcome some of my problems related to it. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Mar 28, 2019
#27: Small Town Life
I talk about my partner and me arguing over who is having the busiest days (with work and his visa application) and the distribution of housework, growing tired of the small town stuff, work junk, and work email stops me recording. I might sound a bit drunk in this episode, but I'm not. It's Benadryl/antihistamine hangover. ;) Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Mar 14, 2019
#26: News and Views
I talk about what's been going on lately. I've acquired new technology, talk about work (and drop hints about what I do professionally), start to rant about anti-vaxxers (this little juicy episode is coming soon), and I give some pretty solid (or liquid…) advice at the end. (The music at the beginning is from Animal Crossing. It's my favourite: KK Faire.) Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Feb 28, 2019
#25: Oh, Brother
I talk about why I am missing podcast episode deadlines and some incredible news I received from my family. I have a brother who I've never met! Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Feb 14, 2019
#24: Weight For It
I talk about what's been keeping me busy lately (writing code and programming), my weight loss that my doctor is concerned with, and then I talk about food (scrambled eggs and breakfast burritos?!), physical weakness, and processing the death(s) in my family since the last podcast episode. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Feb 7, 2019
#23: Loss and Lost
In this one, I talk about the major loss(es) in my family and how powerless I feel being so far away when I feel like my family needs me. I also talk about how much I miss them and wish I could go back for a while. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Jan 24, 2019
#22: Fears, Irrational
A talk about the hot sun turns into me complaining about things that irritate me and then it turns into a confessional about what I am scared of for really dumb reasons. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Jan 10, 2019
#21: Out with the Old, In with the New
I talk about what's happened in 2018 and how I hope to improve in 2019. I also talk about what I hope is going to happen this year and how I'm already proud of myself about what I've accomplished on a personal level. I have high hopes for self-improvement and I won't let myself down! Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Jan 3, 2019
#20: Introduction (Jan 2019)
If you haven't listened for a while or if you're new, this is an introduction with the latest information that explains a little bit about what my podcast is, what it's about, who's involved, and who I am. Every so often I do these (if a lot has changed, and they have). Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Dec 20, 2018
Happy holidays! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! I give you updates about my mental health and getting back into the swing of things out of necessity. My partner isn't around and I miss him—and I get a little jealous sometimes of his family. I also talk a little bit about getting him to stay here with me. I talk about why my holiday spirit is in the toilet and some lady picked me up at the grocery store… and I went home with her. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Dec 6, 2018
#18: Birthday and Healing
This episode is a bit interesting because one part was recorded before I went to the doctor and the other was recorded after I took medication for my issues. I talk about my last year of my 30s, my doctor visits after recording my last podcast episode, my mental health, and how important it is to get mental issues checked on before things get much worse (though it is quite hard to make the first step). Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Nov 22, 2018
I've been having a rough time lately so, thinking that talking it out will make me feel better, I record this. I talk about the problems I'm having, my struggles dealing with those problems mentally, how I plan to deal with those problems, and what I'm thankful for. I get a little bit emotional in this one (because I've been an emotional mess lately). Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Nov 8, 2018
It took me a few tries to record this… sorry if it's disjointed and random. In this episode, I talk about: - I've started a new job - Campin' in the Grampians, a mountain range in Victoria, Australia. - My hatred towards the 'bad' air and my need for some more immunotherapy (or I'll have to move back to the city as soon as I can). - The guilt of calling in sick in the USA. (I've already taken a sick day because I can't breathe.) - I'll be cutting down the number of episodes I do until I get some indication of who's listening. Link to post | Buy me a coffee
Oct 25, 2018
#15: Ghostly Encounters
I talk about some of the scary stuff (shadows, Ouija boards, etc) that's happened to me since I was really young up until now. I also talk about how seeing people who have passed away in my dreams is not a sad occasion (most of the time), and my fascination for cemeteries. Link to Post
Oct 18, 2018
#14: The Past: Depression and Sadness
I know talking about sad things isn't really something everybody wants to hear. It's not all sad though. I talk about my need to make everybody happy and what that feeling probably stems from. I came across all my idioPod episodes from 2007 and 2010 (when I was probably feeling the worst) and why my relationship to who I was with wasn't that great, but it did have some great moments. Link to Post
Oct 7, 2018
#13: My Past: Halloween and Internet Addiction
With my high school reunion coming up (and Halloween), I talk a little bit about what Halloween was like growing up in a small town, why going to my high school reunion isn't a priority, and the really crazy things I used to do to feed my addiction to the internet when I was a teenager (which I feel really bad about now). I can always think of more to say, but wanted to keep this one reasonable, length-wise.
Sep 27, 2018
#12: Slip and Slide
I talk about my little accident I had in early September, how important it is to check on your elderly loved ones every so often, and how I don't like my real estate agent right now. I also talk about my upcoming changes and goals with my podcast episode guide.
Sep 20, 2018
#11: Not So Bad
I talk more about my life in rural Australia, my visitor coming from the USA, my partner's coworker (and a possible ghost hunting adventure), waiting for documents to go back to work, lack of internet, frustrations with my non-existent internet, and the fact that living here isn't really so bad (but it's only been a week). Link to post
Sep 13, 2018
#10: Country Living
I talk about the many speed bumps of moving, living in rural Australia, and how frustrated I am with the internet services (which is why my podcast episodes are so out-of-whack right now). Link to post
Aug 18, 2018
#9: Thank U India
I talk about my trip to India and share my first impressions with you. I also talk about the flooding in Kerala. Please donate if you can. Link to Post, Pictures, and Donation. Links
Jul 16, 2018
#8: Away on Leave
This was supposed to be a short episode letting you know that I won't be releasing podcast episodes for about a month (but will probably be recording bits and pieces as a proper journal thing). I also talk about my lack of plans, conversations with the mother-in-law, being mean to myself, and again, anxiousness. (I'm an anxious person, damn it!) Link to Post
Jul 12, 2018
#7: Brave New World
I talk about married life and going into a brave new world for the first time in about 15 years. Post link
Jul 5, 2018
#6: The Next Steps
I talk even more about my marriage a week from the day when this was recorded (so it's happening on 7/7), my podcasting commitments while I am in India, why I have to move across the state after I come back to Australia, and my awful GI tract. (I'm still trying to process a lot of different things. Recording this will help me refocus my mind on things.) Link to Post
Jun 26, 2018
I talk about the passage of time and how it’s been affecting me. I reflect on the things I’ve done whether they’re good or bad. I talk a little bit about how I fear that passage of time and how it affects me.
Jun 22, 2018
#4: Double Episode
Just a simple message to let you know that this episode is included with the previous one. That's it. No need to listen to this. :) Link to Post
Jun 21, 2018
#3: Can't Stop What's Coming; Can't Stop What's On Its Way
I talk about what's making me anxious right now: travel, the possibility of moving (and having to get back in the closet), and the whole marriage thing. This is a long episode because it's 2 in 1 so that I can get my numbering together before it possibly drives me insane. Link to Post
Jun 14, 2018
Happy Pride Month to you! Why do I have to drink coffee with a spoon in my mug? (Really, why?) I also talk about my feelings about how I feel being out and gay in Texas vs anywhere in Australia and chat a little bit about my feelings about getting married in a month's time. Recorded 2 Jun 2018. Link to page.
Jun 7, 2018
#1: Podcast, Partner, and Places
I divulge some info about why I am doing this podcast (again). I also talk about my partner a bit and a little bit about my upcoming marriage and travel to India (and how I'm looking forward to eating fast food there of all things). Link to web post
May 27, 2018
This is an introduction of the person responsible for "The Idiologic Podcast (TIP)". Learn a little about what makes me tick. Web blog post