Remove Before Flight

Oct 14, 2019

Self-Sabotage & My Plan to Overcoming It

* Sometimes you are your biggest obstacle * Endless justifications * Giving yourself permission to stay the same * My self wants to stay the same because it's comfortable * Our modern lives condition us, more than ever, to seek & expect comfort * I've been the same weight for around 12 years * Excluding my internship at Google where I gained 30+ pounds, lost it, & plateaued again * I promise to tell that story in a future episode * When I zoom out & think about those 12 years, I'm comfortable weighing 280 pounds * Which sounds ridiculous to say out loud & publish on the web * When I zoom in on the day to day I am uncomfortable being overweight * When I was a kid I was worried I wouldn't be tall enough to ride a rollercoaster * As an adult I'm worried that I'm too overweight to ride a rollercoaster * So I have to ask my self, "why are you so comfortable being uncomfortable?" & "why are you protecting that short-term comfort from the long-term comfort?" * It's nonsensical & this week my self-sabotage came to life in the form of not training jiu jitsu * So I sat down to meditate, looking deeply into why I made these decisions & to see what I could learn about my self to overcome this form of sabotage in the future * I have plenty of justifications for why I didn't go to class, like I told you I would * We shipped a product update early Tuesday morning * I felt weak after being sick the week before, losing some momentum * We had a lot of meetings that required me to switch up my schedule & go to class at different times * So I listened to my inner saboteur, didn't uphold the commitment I made in last week's episode, & I didn't go * I also temporarily forgot why I'm doing all of this * It's not to loose 💯 pounds, that's a small part of my bigger reason * It's because I've committed to accomplishing the goal of going to Space * If Elon Musk had texted me & said, "we have a ticket for you next week" I would not be able to go * I'm getting ready now so I can go in the near future & I forgot that *

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