Cry It Out Loud! Miscarriage, Stillbirth and Infant Loss Survivors
Chasing the Rainbows
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Cry it Out Loud! is a real talk, honest podcast about what life is like after birth traumas, infertility, miscarriage, stillbirth and infant loss. Learning how to live again, seeing life out of a whole new lens. Hosted by Chasing the Rainbows founder Bernice Quesenberry, this show promotes holistic connections, support, and comfort for those walking a lifelong journey of grief united, being stronger together. Tune into our Monthly "Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor" segment where survivors ask questions about their own loss for processing and healing. Stay connected to fellow survivors.
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Holidays "The Emotional Hangover"
Holidays after losing our babies are hard. Between the merriness, fakeness and gratefulness, it's a lot to take in when we aren't feeling that way. Especially when its the first one after our babies are gone. It's a harsh reality that our babies are not creating those memories with our family and that everyone is moving on as we feel alone. Bre and Bee discuss feelings that they both had during the holidays and how they coped along with advice from other survivors along the way. Please subscribe and follow us to help reach as many baby loss survivors as we can for our daily, free support services. For more information, please visit ChasingTheRainbows.org. To write in for our "Ask A Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor" segment, please visit our podcast website at CryItOutLoudPodcast.com.
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Nov 29, 2023
When Getting Pregnant Isn’t Easy
We are discussing the beginning stages of trying to conceive, next steps of action and how to have conversations with your OB GYN if you aren’t getting pregnant. OB GYN doctor, Costa Sousou, discusses the first steps and open dialogue that may happen between a patient and doctor when getting pregnant isn’t coming easy. Please tune in, subscribe and share our podcast to help reach as many survivors as we can. To write in for our monthly “Ask a Maternal Medicine Doctor about your loss” please contact us at CryItOutLoudPodcast.com.
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Nov 22, 2023
Part 2: Guilt, Shame & The Blame Game
Infertility, Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Losses are all traumatic. This is the 2nd part of our series because there is a lot of emotions and thoughts behind these feelings. The fuel for our traumas, PTSD, and grief after our losses can be guilt, shame and blame which are completely normal. Survivors are speaking out about our deepest thoughts that arose after our losses with these feelings that aren't talked about in our society or need to be kept quiet. Please tune in, follow and subscribe so we can continue to reach as many survivors as possible.
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Nov 15, 2023
Part 1: Guilt, Shame & The Blame Game
Infertility, Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Losses are all traumatic losses. The feelings that fuel our traumas and PTSD after our losses are guilt, shame and blame which are completely normal. Survivors are speaking out about our deepest thoughts that arose after our losses with these feelings that aren't talked about in our society or we feel we need to silence. Please tune in, follow and subscribe so we can continue to reach as many survivors as possible. Next Wednesday we will drop Part 2 to this series.
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Nov 8, 2023
Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor Segment
Dr. Serena Wu is MD, FACOG, is a maternal-fetal medicine specialist who has experienced her own baby loss. A fellow survivor is on air asking about their son they lost from a virus that was transferred to him in utero. Even years later these questions have been on their minds about their traumatic loss. For processing loss and healing, we want to help give survivors some peace from feeling unsettled. During the whirlwind of traumatic events, it's hard to know what to ask or what to say at that unexpected horrific time. Please write in on our website CryItOutLoudPodcast.com to submit your questions for our monthly segment with Dr. Serena Wu.
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Nov 1, 2023
OB/GYN Doctor: Stillbirth, Pregnancy, Advocating & more
Tune in as Dr. Costa Sousou shares about how to advocate for your level of care with your OB/GYN, causes of baby loss and stillbirth, choosing the right doctor for your pregnancy, and so much more. We are opening the conversation around these silent topics for October Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. Please share, follow and subscribe to our podcast to help us reach more survivors. If you have any unanswered questions about your baby loss either miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss, please write in on our website for our "Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor" segment.
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Oct 25, 2023
Triggers all around!
In this episode, we are discussing triggers for us survivors we lose our babies that we didn't expect. This is to help other survivors armor themselves when out in public but also for their support system to understand how to better comfort them in those moments. We discuss different coping methods and tools used that helped us when those overwhelming emotions and feelings came flooding in when we least expected it. Please tune in, follow and subscribe to our podcast to help us reach more survivors. For daily support, to volunteer and/or donate, please visit http://CryItOutLoudPodcast.com.
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Oct 18, 2023
Surrogacy Q&A with Yessenia Latorre
Yessenia’s been featured in the New York Post, Newsweek, The US Sun, MSN, and is an TikTok influencer and star with a 221,000 following who documents what life truly is like being a surrogate. She has been publicly open about her surrogate journey and making dreams of parenthood become a reality. In honor of October Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, she shares about her own loss that led her to surrogacy. Thank you for tuning in and please follow and subscribe to our podcast to help us reach more survivors. If survivors listening need daily support, want to volunteer or donate, please reach out to us on our contact form through our website http://ChasingTheRainbows.org.
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Oct 11, 2023
Expecting the Unexpected
During this weekly Bre and Bee weekly segment, we discuss questions and topics that survivors face when returning in front of people after baby loss. How many children do you have, birthdays and holidays, treasured items and sacred spaces - all things survivors are left to think about after our horrific losses. We are discussing these difficult topics for survivors to prepare themselves. Please follow and subscribe to our podcast to help us reach more survivors. For daily support or to volunteer, please write in at http://chasingtherainbows.org or http://cryitoutloudpodcast.com
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Oct 4, 2023
Intentions and Actions, Not Words!
In honor of October Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, this segment is for baby loss survivors and their support system. Bre and Bee discuss the comments people have made to them after their losses. It's time to address the words that are said, rather than accepting those remarks and being silenced. These insensitive comments need to stop. They discuss actions and words the support system can use that are helpful and a great guide to follow. If you, someone you know or a loved one has a pregnancy, baby or infant loss, send them to Http://Chasingtherainbows.org for daily support services. Just fill out the contact form.
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Sep 27, 2023
Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor Segment
Dr. Serena Wu is MD, FACOG, is a maternal-fetal medicine specialist who has experienced her own baby loss. We address questions from two fellow survivors about their loss that has been on their minds. For processing loss and healing, we want to help give survivors some peace from feeling unsettled. During the whirlwind of traumatic events, it's hard to know what to ask or what to say at that unexpected horrific time. Please write in on our website CryItOutLoudPodcast.com to submit your questions for our monthly segment with Dr. Serena Wu.
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Sep 20, 2023
Coming Up For Air
Bre and Bee share their experience with the 4th Phase of Grief, Reorganization and Recovery. In this phase, they finally felt like they could breath after losing their babies. They started to have some good days and some not so good days but every minute of everyday wasn't consumed with grief. They started to enjoy different aspects of life again and started to see hope in their futures. If you or someone you know needs a network of survivors or daily support services, please visit http://ChasingTheRainbows.org and fill out the contact form.
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Sep 13, 2023
Mind Full of Clutter
The Founder of Chasing the Rainbows, Bernice Quesenberry, shares her experience with the 3rd Phase of Grief, Disorganization and Despair. The feeling of void, emptiness and reality set in all at once. She had to work through and process the new reality and future that no longer included their baby. If you or someone you know needs a network of survivors, please visit http://ChasingTheRainbows.org and fill out the contact form.
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Sep 6, 2023
Forever Missing
The Founder of Chasing the Rainbows, Bernice Quesenberry, shares her experience with the 2nd Phase of Grief, Searching and Yearning. The ultimate search for answers, wanting clarity, and trying to fill the emptiness and void that fully consume survivors during this phase isn't talked about enough. She ultimately came to terms with ways to connect with her daughter after processing this phase. If you or someone you know needs a network of survivors, please visit http://ChasingTheRainbows.org and fill out the contact form.
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Aug 30, 2023
Survival Mode
Bre and Bee discuss the 1st phase of grief, shock and numbness. What it's like actually living through this phase immediately after our losses. The lack of memory, concentration, and emotion really was our minds protecting us while our new reality sets in. We discuss what we physically, emotionally and mentally went through during this phase. If you or someone you know needs a network of survivors, please visit ChasingTheRainbows.org and fill out the contact form.
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Aug 23, 2023
9 Months of FEAR
We are shedding the light on Pregnancy after Loss for those survivors who are living it right now. We want to let survivors know you are not alone and your feelings, fears and emotions are valid! We are hoping by talking about our own experiences, what helped us through those months, that it helps others along their journey. We have daily, free, virtual support groups and one on one mentorships at Chasing the Rainbows to support those in the midst of pregnancy after their devastating losses. Please visit http://ChasingTheRainbows.org for more information.
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Aug 16, 2023
Brooke Marie's Story
The Founder of Chasing the Rainbows, Bernice Quesenberry, shares her story on air for the first time. Brooke's story involves secondary infertility, abnormal growths and menstrual cycles, advanced maternal age, 28 week delivery, NICU life, and ultimately losing her daughter in her arms at 5 1/2 weeks old. There were multiple events that played out in the less than 1% probable causes that led to Brooke's traumatic death. Leaving the hospital that horrific day without her daughter is what drove her to start the 501(c)3 nonprofit offering daily, free, trauma informed support services for survivors. Please visit http://ChasingTheRainbows.org for support services or to write in for more information.
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Aug 9, 2023
Infertility is Fertility Loss!
Infertility needs to be considered a major medical condition. In this episode, we are discussing secondary infertility. Right now, 19 states out of 50 cover infertility treatments. While our 501(c)3 nonprofit was doing a June World Infertility Awareness month viral challenge, #fertilityloss is a barely used hashtag. This type of loss needs to be looked at as the serious reproductive organ disease it is. We are looking to host primary infertility survivors on our podcast and would love to hear your story. Please write in at CryItOutLoudPodcast.com if interested in sharing your experience.
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Aug 2, 2023
'Shoulding' All Over Ourselves
Moments of guilt along with would of, could of, should of's, sneak into survivors minds at different points in our journeys. Talking about it out loud helps us to normalize our feelings and thoughts while processing our losses and yearning for different outcomes. We are bringing this topic to light in hopes of helping fellow survivors. Please visit CryItOutLoudPodcast.org for other daily support services or to write in for our "Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor" about your loss for some peace.
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Jul 26, 2023
Ask A Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor Segment About YOUR LOSS
Dr. Serena Wu is MD, FACOG, is a maternal-fetal medicine specialist who has experienced her own baby loss. To help fellow survivors feel comfortable asking any and all questions weighing on their mind, the Founder of our 501(c)3 non-profit, Chasing the Rainbows, asks questions from her loss two years later to gain clarity around those events in this episode. For processing loss and healing, we want to help give survivors some peace from feeling unsettled. During the whirlwind of traumatic events, it's hard to know what to ask or what to say at that unexpected horrific time. Please write in on our website CryItOutLoudPodcast.com to submit your questions for our monthly segment with Dr. Serena Wu.
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Jul 19, 2023
When Not Even A Prayer
It is hard for survivors in those first minutes, hours, days immediately after our losses. Where do I go from here feeling isolated and alone? Join Cardiovascular Technologist and Professor, Breanna Gruver as she shares what she did during those gut wrenching first moments after experiencing fertility loss, 4 miscarriages and 2 stillbirths in 5 years. If you want to stay connected, united and supported by fellow loss survivors, this show is for you. Stay tuned next week for our "Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor" about your loss (find more details at CryItOutLoudPodcast.com).
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Jul 15, 2023
Repurposed Pain
This is the first birth trauma, fertility loss, pregnancy loss, and baby loss survivor podcast that is about living life after our traumatic losses. We will be featuring a monthly “Ask a Maternal Fetal Medicine Doctor” segment where listeners can write in to ask about your loss to get answered on air for healing and processing. We also will be hosting a monthly “Father’s Perspective” segment to give different points of views for our listeners.
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