Dropout Philosophy
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the current system has failed black people. i’m just vibing and rambling, trying to cope with the simulation and figure out how i feel.
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Nov 11, 2023
the worst podcast ever? lmao
i can’t bring myself to cut out the part i did specifically for the video… like the real podcast doesn’t start till like 7? minutes in or something? i can’t be bothered unfortunately to fix it, hope somethint worked in there. i won’t use that mic set up again lmao don’t worry
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Aug 15, 2023
ds #291 yikes, a habit ramble
enter if you dare. i also didn’t realize that little reverse sound effect would be so loud so sorry in advance for the production/listening experience but anywho. lately i’ve been re-listening to Atomic Habits by James Clear and been thinking about how often i neglect my own systems and focus on critiquing the systems of others (yeah, i know. i’m working on it) + a bonus part 2 after i chicken out of going full sherlock holmes on the mysterious noise in another room. yeah girl idk. love you byeeee
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Aug 14, 2023
ds #290 (LIVE) making space for the first step
i was chaotically drawing on IG live today (check it out and follow @officialshmay on the gram ma’am) and talked about what im noticing is necessary for my progress, prioritizing space and time for step 1 (and sometimes step zeroooo)
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Jul 27, 2023
ds #289 | standards pt 1
a chaos filled car ride to a semi clear destination
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Jun 17, 2023
ds #288 | truth minus assumption
youre not “wrong” about your experience but you’re not as good at predicting the future as you may think you are (note to self)
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May 13, 2023
ds #286 | current learnings + bloopers
my misconception and cowardice exposed and plus also i have a yucky outtake that i share with you. enjoy. be good. bye bye.
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May 7, 2023
ds #285 | filters & compound growth
there are surface filters (instagram filters, LUTs and presets), experiential filters (substances, ego, content, proximity, environment), and underneath everything there are core filters (the code and operating systems installed and hacked into over time, the machine behind everything, the beliefs that hold your reality in place).
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Mar 30, 2023
ds #284 butterfly POV
from this side of the coin, i present: a true shmay babble, mania flavored trip down dropout philosophy lane. dumpster fires, unreasonable metaphors, snacks and curse words brought to you by me and generous viewers like u. thank u
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Mar 28, 2023
ds #283 spring cleaning priorities
a sleepy girl ramble/suggestion about refreshing your conscientious list of “what matters to me?”
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Mar 24, 2023
ds #282 clogging the system
ai art is garbage
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Mar 23, 2023
ds #281 chaotic kitchen talk
i can’t remember what this one is about but its a draft so here u are
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Feb 23, 2023
ds #280 the in between
Rest in Peace Joel
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Feb 20, 2023
ds #279 ready for new pt 2
girl… i’m sorry for the throat clearing sounds
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Feb 17, 2023
daily shmay #278 being ready for the new
a conceptual word dump on two forms of “being ready for something new” in my opinion. sorry to alex honnold, for forgetting your name, keep up the great work darling. it’s chaotic, but it’s not wrong!
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Feb 12, 2023
daily shmay #277 | adhesive & goals
fixing stuff for grams and thinking about thinking. took me a few tries.
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Jan 17, 2023
ds #276 | lady electrician pls
representation matters to meeeee
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Dec 28, 2022
ds #275 caution vs worry
i swear i love my grams, i’m not complaining go subscribe to her youtube channel
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Dec 27, 2022
ds #274 God Compost
plans are silly & divine fertilizer
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Dec 18, 2022
ds #273 | recognize that voice
is that your thought or feeling? do you want to feel that way? do you know which part of you is in the drivers seat. very very rambly and such. expand your vocabulary, awareness and power
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Dec 14, 2022
ds #272 anti santa & roasting society’s ignorance of the internet
joining in any trend (no matter how long standing and innocent it seems) in this era is a risk. i don’t trust gen pop, so i’m not about to join the holly jolly charade and force these weird capitalism lies on a kid in their formative years
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Dec 12, 2022
ds #271 stop not doing the thing
ur gunna have to do it anyways, move a muscle change a thought and other gems. what’s my fave quote from this episode you ask? “capitalism is in that ass”
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Dec 12, 2022
ds #270 have faith or whatever?
i honestly just forgot to post this so i can’t remember what its about fr just listen and enjoyyyyy
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Dec 8, 2022
ds #269 internet intimacy
like you have access to a lot of thoughts and performance art but 1 on 1 time? nah, it’s not that easy. stay in GA if you want OR should i start a patreon acct?
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Dec 7, 2022
ds #268 | conversations and science
shmay in bed talkin science and yawning, don’t worry.. tomorrow will be juicy
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Dec 6, 2022
ds #267 | happy & rituals
pleasant surprises and other yummy things. enjoy your time, use your rituals. i love you!
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Nov 27, 2022
ds #??? | kitchen mumble chaos
honestly… i apologize for this 😂 i know better and imma do better, next episode is gunna be the audio and content quality experience you deserve
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Nov 17, 2022
ds #265 | what r u rly after
the mind is sneaky, life is less frustrating when you work from awareness and truth and your own power
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Nov 12, 2022
ds #264 | post fort clarity
i made fancy grilled cheese and explain why it makes PERFECT sense for me to make a fort on a friday night. don’t be discouraged by my initial thought about states and cheese, i get on track (kinda) eventuallyyyyy
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Nov 11, 2022
ds #263 would u be a fun teammate in the apocalypse?
multitasking and bad audio and rambles!
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Oct 28, 2022
ds #262 weird parent vibes
and negatively why r u being mad so passionately when u havent an ounce of passion in your own life and if beibg big mad worked baby why hasn’t it
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Oct 18, 2022
ds #261 deja vu????? no beyoncé
this is so wild… the feeling of familiarity is so wild
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Oct 13, 2022
ds #260 idk who (me) needs to hear this
don’t beat yourself up bro that makes no sense. don’t sabotage. feeling good and connected to God/good is important. little chaotic but… oh well
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Oct 8, 2022
ds #259 | crazy is cool
thanks for 10k plays & here’s my take on insanity
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Oct 5, 2022
ds #258 | grease ya mind
chaos and good things + life update
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Oct 2, 2022
ds #256 | shift the dialogue forward
let’s not reduce every culture to a negative thing. (or gentrified aav “slang”, corporate social media account lingo, girlboss email list template, buzzfeed quiz). this might sound chaotic but i think i said some good things.
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Sep 28, 2022
ds #255 | redirect to what is
your attention is like fertilizer
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Sep 17, 2022
ds #254 | freelance $ chaos
it’s time!
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Sep 11, 2022
ds #253 | ease please
i like how life works when i genuinely want to feel good. God is good.
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Sep 10, 2022
ds #252 | bless errythang
just do it
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Sep 4, 2022
ds #251 | want
a very cap venus sleepyhead ramble about what i think desire/want is or at least how it’s showing up in my immediate experience
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Aug 31, 2022
ds #250 | prepare if u dare
just a lil quickly
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Aug 30, 2022
ds #249 | i can’t remember
i’ll retitle it later
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Aug 23, 2022
ds #248 | get comfy get surprised
idk i’m tiredddds
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Aug 16, 2022
ds #247 | stop the madness
why u doing that if u don’t know what to do
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Aug 4, 2022
ds #246 | love is not enough pt 1
thrifted books and park sounds!!!
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Jul 24, 2022
ds #244 | practice on yourself
tired, sorry for noise
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Jun 28, 2022
ds #243 | annoying.. for the greater good
i’m a divine being… but i’m also mad human and super annoying sometimes and that’s just life baby
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Jun 25, 2022
ds #242 just kidding kinda
i’m alot
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Jun 24, 2022
ds #241 | this is sick
hate u get away from me (just woke up)
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Jun 21, 2022
ds #240 radical principles
make it easier on yourself to change
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Jun 14, 2022
ds #239 | spider shmay: into the metaphor-verse
it’s a bad title and i don’t care >:P
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Jun 12, 2022
ds #238 | about last night
chaos! but here’s what we learned & 3(ish) takeaway points that are kinda actionable?? we don’t know what’s going on fr but we sure are trying. love uuuuu
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Jun 10, 2022
ds #237 | a quick message from nature girl
yum! outside! sunshine!
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Jun 8, 2022
ds #236 | the untethered shmay
i don’t even reference the book so idk why it’s named that i’m just in my feels so here’s a quickie
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Jun 5, 2022
ds #235 | grateful longing lessons
know thyself to the point where you can realize the *actionable* lesson on this level. listen to your soul.
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Jun 4, 2022
ds #234 | shaken foundation
what does losing that example.. give you? how can you shift your perspective. how can you fill yourself up.
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Jun 2, 2022
ds #233 | list specific
quick lil tip for my fellow distracted and attention deficit cuties. s/o david allen for writing Getting Things Done and for all the content he creates around the framework
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Jun 1, 2022
ds #232 | survivorship bias
confessions of a human with an ego and a bunch of desires and a bunch of fears. what are the real needs? what is your priority? solution? cure? or is comfort and cognitive clarity what you’re willing to protect. the unknown is where a lot of truth is. grateful. also, as i type this i hear: “your head is telling your heart to love, and your heart is trying to be logical” - Queen Cup - what fears are you voluntarily obeying at your own expense. what self betrayal are you continuing to choose in a false belief that you will be rewarded by running from the truth.
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May 29, 2022
ds #231 | nasty but honest crybaby ramble
girl what am i doing. anyways this is embarrassing!!!
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May 24, 2022
ds #230 | a lost, sad ramble
why does this continue. i’m so sorry
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May 7, 2022
ds #229 inner child advocate
sleepy ramble about how we miss the origin of the audacity of children and we often miss the mundane and parental ways we can build our relationship with our inner child. not a professional tho so don’t mind me.
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May 3, 2022
ds #228 how you engage
i understand the reality dating and marriage shows are very entertaining and i’m happy for you if you watch em tho.
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Apr 28, 2022
ds #227 obstacles pt 1
idk i haven’t listened back to know what it’s about
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Apr 11, 2022
ds #225 attitude dude
idk
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Apr 7, 2022
ds #224 (tw: language/SA/ableism) i’m tired
i do speak about assault, homophobia/transphobia/racism/ableism. i’m tired and i know it’s not even like i do enough, i’m just tired
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Apr 7, 2022
ds #223 the slap (ig live)
it’s literally not even our business. i don’t mean to minimize the layers in this issue, like colorism and patriarchy and racism… but this is how i see it for now.
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Apr 4, 2022
ds #222 | trees & life
i was supposed to be reading
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Apr 3, 2022
ds #226??? the best time to learn korean is now
bruh….. why am i so bad at this 😂😂😂 more episodes coming soon
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Mar 10, 2022
ds #221 hazards, rain & screaming
drive safely & responsibly please. i’m yelling, it’s raining, i accidentally called hazard lights blinkers
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Feb 26, 2022
ds #220 thank you & reflection
thanks for listening.
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Feb 24, 2022
ds #219 no shot shorty
you can’t peer pressure a real nigga
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Feb 22, 2022
ds #218 to do or not to do
i talk about doing things while i do things like make dinner
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Feb 21, 2022
ds #217 brick & water pt 3.
bajillion dollas
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Feb 18, 2022
ds #216 i cried, it was not sexy
yep
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Feb 17, 2022
ds #215 brick & water pt 2
we go all over the place, like literally good luck keeping up fam. the truth is complicated. my/our/the truths. i get mad so.. be prepared.
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Feb 16, 2022
ds #214 brick & water pt 1
we have a guest tonight 🥳 you can find candace on the interwebs @candacerogue / @501rogueland - we talked about the artist way and cackled at our own jokes.
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Feb 11, 2022
ds #213 | mumbling about the matrix
so sleepy. get in we're going timeline jumping
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Jan 25, 2022
ds #212 bio elitist check-in
language warning: it gets raunchy. 🤷🏽♀️ i tried to google bio elitist before i hit publish to make sure i wasn’t using the phrase completely wrong and it’s basically not even a thing, that’s how bad at being victims yall are. embarrassingggggg!! i’m going in on this one i come for the pasty, horny-for-robot type mf and the churches that are obsessed with the gays all y’all are LOST! i say some pretty terrible things though so consider yourself warned.
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Jan 22, 2022
ds #211 commercial from hell
between this and “don’t look up” i’m over it.
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Jan 21, 2022
ds #210 changed my mind
it’s ok to not have a perfect explanation, it’s ok to follow the inner wisdom
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Jan 18, 2022
ds #209 integration and such
all of it is here, so all of it must be blessed/welcomed/acknowledged! - so many people i need to get y’all hop to, i’ll update the show notes and add something to the officialshmay website real soon.
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Jan 12, 2022
ds #208 drawing ramble - two steps to change
make space & apply the fundamental preparations for the new thing. i was too lazy to stop podding while i was on live
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Jan 8, 2022
ds #207 moths, the end of days and other distractions
i’m deflecting from an existential crisis, i’m happy to admit that rants about men and society are easy targets when i am at a loss for words to describe my existence. not sponsored.
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Jan 5, 2022
#206 lunch ramble
chaos chaos chaos & a balanced meal. i am happy!
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Dec 1, 2021
ds #205 forms r not gravity
not f*cking with forms g
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Nov 18, 2021
ds #204 relationship rethink
if i’m an airplane, right? idk. rambly ramble. i know it sounds insensitive, but i think connection can be practical
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Nov 15, 2021
ds #203 discipline
pls excuse my morning voice. redefine terms for yourself and re-examine what you need to do.
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Nov 10, 2021
ds #202 biases & apnea
sleepyhead by henry nicholls is a genuinely entertaining and insightful book. i talk about sleep apnea, cataplexy, bias and fat-phobia. my dog comes in for the final sign off.
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Nov 9, 2021
ds #idc subjectivity rage
don’t be an idiot
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Sep 29, 2021
ds #201 happy trap?? fungi??
i forgot to hit publish
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Sep 16, 2021
ds #200 airport thoughts pt 1
imagine thinking humans are the most intelligent thing around or that there’s no “magic” to anything
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Aug 30, 2021
ds #199 know your mirrors
simulations are a way to experience what is. a mirror is a simulation. the people and experiences you engage with are mini simulations to declare and “rediscover” what is (or who you are).
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Aug 17, 2021
ds #198 awareness garage ramble
the self if just a simulation based on how we think a human would feel
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Aug 9, 2021
ds #197 sleepy but unattached
i fell sleep
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Aug 1, 2021
ds #196 sleepy simulation
isk
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Jul 31, 2021
ds #195 i am actively uninterested in your feelings about me
idk idk blah blah blah v sleepy. y’all r not afshdhudndke
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Jul 28, 2021
ds #194 can they at least pick up litter
be useful!!! if u won’t be abolished be useful until we figure out how to do that!!!
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Jul 27, 2021
ds #193 like vs want
choose enjoyment over desire & attachment! and notice where you have desire and see what you can work on to have a less possessive or lack-centered view. books mentioned: 1. Aware by Daniel Siegel M.D. 2. Solve for Happy by Mo Gawdat 3. ??? (pending. imma have to relisten)
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Jul 24, 2021
ds #192 trauma for what
if you think “you should traumatize your parents if they traumatized you” is a good suggestion block me back you ‘murrica a$$ b!tch. obviously gunna use bad words and talk to you straight. prepare yourself i’m sick of it. - also visit the shop officialshmay.com
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Jul 14, 2021
ds #191 where is the shame?? (story time)
now i gotta decide between churros and peace of mind you should be ASHAMED OF URSELF. ranty-ramble, enjoy
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Jul 1, 2021
ds #190 i’m high maintenance + churro fail
so i’m both high maintenance and materialistic but not in a way where those things could ever out-leverage my logic & natural tendency to be difficult… u know? ✨✨✨✨✨ also go shop officialshmay.com please, my shirts are funny and 25% of profits are going to a donation for the Disibility Visibility Project (founded by Alice Wong). learn more on the site ✨✨✨✨✨ idk if hashtags work but let’s see #ramble #highmaintenence #dating #churro
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Jun 29, 2021
ds #189 u r here
radical self acceptance is the key if you really want to move on from your current self. "im on my way" no you are not you are just now getting out the shower quit it! theres nothing wrong with where you are. you are already there. the good news is you want to go be somewhere else. in short, stop waiting to ask for directions until you get womewhere else
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Jun 27, 2021
ds #188 where u from
shut up bro
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Jun 25, 2021
ds #187 noticing > cringing
yareyareda ze (good grief in japanese according to googles) - its giving rom com main character before or at the beginning of the montage of improvement! like ur rooting for her but she is definitely not at the finale and be falling on her ass a little
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Jun 23, 2021
#186 messy distracted heat
oh boy, we talk sun and size and heat and entropy and change and babies and math. good luxk
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Jun 21, 2021
ds #185 juneteenth n being urself
i recorded this hella late on juneteenth and while the production is straight cheeks, the message is real. enjoy, ily
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Jun 14, 2021
ds #184 honestly present
ahh shit here we go again, that’s right i’m back to being mindful n intentional what’s good
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Jun 7, 2021
ds #183 intimidation & churros
think piece based on a very non-threatening, innocent-enough comment from a lonely man.
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Jun 6, 2021
ds #182 untitled
untitled ep. content warning? pain? idk
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Jun 4, 2021
ds #181 vague ramble
sometimes i’m just here to keep it going but i’m always here for the real life experience and philosophy
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May 26, 2021
ds #180 “if a man did that”
you dont fucking care. and if you do, act like it this not a game.
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May 24, 2021
ds #179 set the tone
what are you preparing to get more of?
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May 15, 2021
ds #178 self induced mania
risky bidness
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May 8, 2021
ds #177 sexy, luxury, safety
i tried to tap in, but the body keeps score you know? correlations are made, points also were made. lots of yawning also
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May 4, 2021
ds #176 wingstop
is it traffic or is it a vibe
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Apr 30, 2021
#175 attributes n traffic
you gotta get out the comfort zone manually before you get yeeted out the comfort zone
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Apr 26, 2021
ds #174 full moon conflicted
lettuce pray i make the right decision and don’t look dumb?
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Apr 24, 2021
ds #173 there’s a loan for that
smells like a trap ladies and gentlemen, also it’s fuck the pilgrims these ways
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Apr 22, 2021
ds #172 love thy self
judgement traps and other performative rituals
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Apr 20, 2021
ds #171 stabilitea
micheal singer came for me so you gotta hear it too
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Apr 15, 2021
ds #170 fractal walk n talk
another walking adventure!!! and we discuss what fractals can do for you
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Apr 15, 2021
ds #169 pod, interrupted
what's important now tho? and why did this take 4 tries
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Apr 12, 2021
ds #168 the usual dilemma
how should i know how to even be selfish the right way
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Apr 12, 2021
ds #167(?) i am happy
shits crazy
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Apr 3, 2021
ds #163 balance (informal)
duality is an experience, balance isnt a destinations. i will revisit this.
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Apr 2, 2021
ds #162 emotions r like kids
ur the boss not the baby! (disclaimer i do not know what its like to have kids yet (praise God) so these metaphors are just metaphors. bear with me)
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Apr 2, 2021
ds #161 no more rachels
can we collectively agree to stop making yt women who exploit or fetishize blackness... famous? can we stop giving that show any views? im begging you. its old.
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Mar 28, 2021
ds #160 random mess + harambe
ion know im just here so i dont get fined
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Mar 26, 2021
ds #159 WALK N TALK ADVENTURE (bugs & content)
this is a masterpiece tbh. we got bugs, content, construction, margaret, metaphors, rambles, pennies, loud, hills.
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Mar 23, 2021
ds #158 | telling on myself
i should b sleep.
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Mar 21, 2021
ds #157 | dementia diet
shit is rigged i tell you!!!!! damn u dociety!
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Mar 19, 2021
ds #156 | 30 years old
“why did we believe things matter more because we achieve them before 30?” listen i just wanna get to be myself before i die idk fam
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Mar 19, 2021
ds #155 | ur ruining it g
stop calling it being woke and start just wanting to know the truth about reality????
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Mar 17, 2021
ds #154 | relentless?
is micheal being micheal worth micheal being micheal?
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Mar 14, 2021
ds #153 | bugs & ego
i really be taking nonpersonal things personally and ive decided to stop doing that. wasteful! haven't decided to stop running when i see a wasp but im ok with that. it keeps me uoung
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Mar 11, 2021
ds #152 | leavemeloneee
yes another men rant, i'll stop making them when yall stop bothering me
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Mar 8, 2021
ds #151 laundry ramble
start that thing
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Mar 1, 2021
ds #150 its giving pre-suffrage
"we as women are being told that we can have whatever we want and" go to hell 😂 this is not a safe space if you a maid get outta here go hide behind somebody's balls cause i gotta say something.
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Feb 28, 2021
ds #149 contribute, its easy
its rly not about you making shit into a business or becoming famous for creating content. its just about creating your own content just to contribute to what everyone else sees. youre an original.
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Feb 23, 2021
ds #148 GTD
david allen is one of my fave old yt men thought leaders. heres one of rge most basic pieces of the GTD method
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Feb 22, 2021
ds #147 5 days a week
a hefty conversation. lets chat about how the problem is not that the weekend is too short. that right there is the sound of people who are being exploited.
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Feb 19, 2021
ds #146 consequences
following up from ds #144 bc yikes
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Feb 18, 2021
ds #145 objective soul
s/o dr demartini
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Feb 17, 2021
ds #144 boundary breaches
disorganized analysis of boundaries and why setting & defending can only go so far. consequences are required for the full benefit.
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Feb 11, 2021
ds #143 tweet 4 u boo
give up the template tweeting, you sound silly. own your wheeled backpack memories and speak for yourself
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Jan 24, 2021
ds #142 intuitive knowing
i just know when its time to get out the jam. scorpio/sacral chakra tings 🤷🏽♀️
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Jan 17, 2021
ds #141 ur embarrassing me
the richest person on the planet pays you $16 and you mad cause finally the govt will recognize $15 is the minimum wage needed to live. go awf babe
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Jan 13, 2021
ds #140 dreams do come true
you dont gotta be ready, you just gotta accept
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Jan 10, 2021
ds#139 it is what it is
you got it boss
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Jan 9, 2021
ds #138 my natural skill
if you didnt think hard about it pls go away. if you dont want my opinion leave me alone. if you dont care about being intentional get out my face.
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Jan 7, 2021
ds #137 endings
leaders accept reality
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Jan 6, 2021
ds #136 fear, cycles & mumbles
idk man join the pity party. when im tired i just kinda flop around so i bet the audio will be chaotic
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Dec 31, 2020
ds #135 quantum field ramble
i love it here but also i would like to be excused from thursday
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Dec 26, 2020
ds #134 taoism tings
theres a time for that homie, and the best part? you can only really handle one time at a time so boom
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Dec 26, 2020
ds #133 mj
sleepy
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Dec 18, 2020
ds #132 new body
you not too young for shit. show gratitude for your body by doing what you can for it *voluntarily* today
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Dec 16, 2020
ds #131 each part of you
all of the pieces of you are you and we all need to find the balance between leading a community and letting the community kill itself.
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Dec 15, 2020
ds #130 bizness blues
charging people money is so strange, but we move!
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Dec 14, 2020
ds #128 zone of genius
theres a reason you naturally gravitate to certain tasks, invest in that.
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Dec 13, 2020
ds #129 babies, uteruses & death
i am rly not tryna even hear that "i gotta pay for dinner" shit
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Dec 11, 2020
ds #127 their free will
you cant keep telling yourself you control other people. have u not seen the Dark Knight?
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Dec 10, 2020
ds #126 u dont hate TSR enough 4 me
either you lying to me or yourself or both. lets discuss the duality of cardigan backyardigan's tweets.
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Dec 9, 2020
ds #125 hateration
hate exists, hate can be healthy and "hating a person" is dumb.
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Dec 6, 2020
ds #124 baby body loyalty & stufd
check out "the body keeps score" by Bessel van der Kolk if you bad. (side-side-side note: i dont like yawning)
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Dec 5, 2020
ds #123 time flies
slow down there buckaroo
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Dec 4, 2020
ds #122 references
go beyond yelp reviews and algorithms. ask old couples about their relationships. ask people who have started over what they did. ask people who have good taste what shows they like.
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Dec 3, 2020
ds #121 leave that baby alone
i think folks are too comfortable. get some standards people. you dont get paid money to tweet (just attention)
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Dec 1, 2020
ds #120 nate robinson
you may have a concussion AND your L has now become a cyber bullying topic. thats tough buddy.
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Nov 30, 2020
ds #119 nonsense morning chit chat
idk man, hope yall doin ok
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Nov 24, 2020
ds #118 resistance is futile!!
a very distracted ramble. warning: my stomach growls at the end of the episode.
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Nov 22, 2020
ds #117 age is butta #
i turned 23.
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Nov 20, 2020
ds #116 so what
go buy 2 Black Nerds merch right this instant!!!
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Nov 19, 2020
ds #115 routines & rituals
what if you had a formula, the same way in inception there's a totem, that could anchor you to what you want even when your brain is being sabotage-y
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Nov 14, 2020
ds #114 how (good) are you
you’ll only know how good you are if you try your best for a considerable amount of time
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Nov 12, 2020
ds #113 are you the moon?
before you ask if you should take them seriously, make sure you've taken your own orbit into consideration.
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Nov 10, 2020
ds #112 take the stairs if you can
you would think an able bodied, highly privileged human would be less inclined to judgement and a lack of gratitude. you dont train yourself to be compassionate by never sacrificing comfort. you dont move towards a socialist/less capitalist society by being selfish with your own money. you dont appreciate your youth by doing everything you will be stuck doing when youre 80. take the stairs with me.
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Nov 8, 2020
ds #111 wokety woke woke
its good news?
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Nov 6, 2020
ds #110 the brick wall
listen to the nudges. sincerely, someone who's experienced some brick walls
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Nov 1, 2020
ds #109 rollercoaster revelation
if u suck and u care, do something about it. it'll be ok
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Oct 31, 2020
ds #108 data points
hello!? scientific method people!?
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Oct 29, 2020
ds #107 facial expressions
sometimes i just like to double check.
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Oct 28, 2020
ds #106 job description
if my goal is to fail less, i need to start somewhere so i can learn more, get wiser, etc..... my job is to create enough movement to receive feedback and then learn from it. lets get to work then.
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Oct 27, 2020
ds #105 i guess its ok
overwhelm. but make it fashion. idk man, just one of those rambles.
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Oct 25, 2020
ds #104 run to
you cant just run away from the ax wielding murderer. you must run towards safety and help.
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Oct 24, 2020
ds #103 pour it up
hows ur cup looking beloved?
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Oct 23, 2020
ds #102 anita & afterlife
this too shall pass. also, we dont deserve smino.
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Oct 22, 2020
ds #101 yay soreness
it is my honor and delight to report that my cheeks are indeed aching. love it
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Oct 21, 2020
ds #100 toxic useless opinion litter
are you critiquing megan on the internet because you think she'll see it and it will be helpful? or are you ignorant and annoying? or??
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Oct 20, 2020
ds #99 disease vs disorder
ok boom, so youre aware and accepting... dont stop there!! i am not licensed for any typa mental health or doctorly nothing. im just talking.
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Oct 18, 2020
ds #98 jealous of men
yall rly are yalls best friends and that's tight. have an open mind :)
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Oct 18, 2020
ds #97 living will
RIP chadwick
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Oct 17, 2020
ds #96 open
i like surprises.
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Oct 15, 2020
ds #95 wounded
i know, its corny. but hurt ppl hurt people.
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Oct 14, 2020
ds #94 this is crazy (tw: death)
cw: i talk about death and i cry. whatever.
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Oct 14, 2020
ds #93 thru the wire
cw: gross. moral of the story: its important to live and take action instead of making hard things any harder than they have to be by judging your current situation.
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Oct 12, 2020
ds #92 examine emotion
once you start acknowledging and feeling your feelings the next step is to properly examine them and not be bossed around by them or spoil them
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Oct 10, 2020
ds #91 celebrity or corruption
what you tweet about matters. at least balance out your bullshit by using your privilege. #EndSARS #EndSARSNow
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Oct 9, 2020
ds #90 details (low quality ramble)
i do not recommend this one, but moral of the story is details.
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Oct 8, 2020
ds #89 flowers r mid
"here i brought u this living thing that someone else grew and beheaded and i spent money on them and now i want you to have them while they die."
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Oct 7, 2020
ds #88 blacktober whitesavior
listen man... at least bring your one black friend
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Oct 5, 2020
ds #87 work with what you have
we gotta start somewhere america 🤷🏽♀️
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Oct 4, 2020
ds #86 contrast ramble
this is such a chaotic unclear talk, but i believe in you. find a nugget of wisdom. or whatever
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Oct 2, 2020
ds #85 pray ?? i
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Sep 30, 2020
ds #84 do the thing
thanks for 3k listens kids, thats rly nice of you. you minus whale subscribe
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Sep 29, 2020
ds #83 choosing
that word is spelled silly. anyways, lets talk about choice and fear
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Sep 28, 2020
ds #82 who said "though" should be spelled like that
humans r sooooo funny
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Sep 27, 2020
ds #81 pedestrian/fan bs
its not that s3rious, i probably have done some similar thing... but i had time today so lets rant.
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Sep 26, 2020
ds #80 i challenge you
to stop putting lol in every message when you know your face is stale as heck in real life.
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Sep 25, 2020
ds #79 hater pollution
if u carpool with other haters u still a hater and u still polluting the earf
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Sep 24, 2020
ds #78 a reminder
s/o past me for using the notes app man, thats clutch.
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Sep 23, 2020
ds #77 blatant injustice
this makes me sick.
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Sep 22, 2020
ds #76 "can i get a hug"
halloween gotta be cancelled right?
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Sep 21, 2020
ds #75 quintessential
the word of the day
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Sep 20, 2020
ds #74 leave good reviews
s/o izzy in south carolina and s/o essential workers dealing with insensitive people
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Sep 18, 2020
ds #73 i feel u dawg
feel them feels, but feelings are not facts! if u get a papercut dont burn a ream of paper, get a bandaid, hydrate and lotion more often. heal ur stuff and regain perspective
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Sep 17, 2020
ds #72 gps
where do you go when you dont know where to go?
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Sep 15, 2020
ds #71 momentum (babies)
can u even believe how we all grew out of cells inside a human. go listen to dropout philosophy episode 3 from 2019 for more of me saying the word babies.
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Sep 14, 2020
ds #70 sober thoughts
unscripted and unorganized reflection on 2 years of being above thee influence
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Sep 14, 2020
ds #69 anti-santa household
exCUSE the voice 🥴 but just my thoughts on so-called saint nick
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Sep 13, 2020
ds #68 suffering
a bathtub ramble about human suffering and such
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Sep 11, 2020
ds #67 secrets
reality is messy and eats other peoples lunch out the fridge (but u didnt hear that from me)
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Sep 10, 2020
ds #66 chaotic tower
im still going through it so
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Sep 9, 2020
ds #65 eye am uncomfortable
lean into the anarchy, yes? you might relate to something.
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Sep 8, 2020
ds #64 cartoon
i truly cannot believe this is my life and i am responsible for engaging with it and somehow some way things will keep happening that make no sense and.
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Sep 7, 2020
ds #63 live with it
idk what i said so figure it out
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Sep 3, 2020
ds #62 codependent oak tree
its messy, but its good. listen up lil seed, its oak tree time baby. lmao... what am i even saying. just listen to the podcast
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Sep 2, 2020
ds #61 revenge ER
ur not funny if ur only funny when joking about violence and shit. ❤️ plus i give you scorpionic advice for extendo revenge
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Aug 31, 2020
ds #60 until then
RIP chadwick
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Aug 28, 2020
ds #59 healed enough to be human
if you dont have a sturdy foundation of love within yourself, you wont be able to continue to be a human in 2020. its so rough out here so please do what you need to do. work on your relationship with yourself. LISTEN to ur emotions and be kind, notice what theyre telling you. then go heal it. u gone be stuck with ur humanity till the wheels fall off so make it comfy in there.
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Aug 27, 2020
ds #58 sad mumbles
happy to be myself. but i am currently experiencing sad. haven't even processed the global events i am sorry
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Aug 25, 2020
ds #57 joel poor ramble
this one is chaotic, good luck.
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Aug 24, 2020
ds #56 kobe and you
how will people describe you when youre gone?
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Aug 23, 2020
ds #55 the adhd test
two bands? two bands???
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Aug 21, 2020
a tweet by @lyssa_a
k
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Aug 21, 2020
ds #54 triggered
shit do not be funny. r kelly jokes for all these years while no justice was served. harassing megan. breonna taylor MERCH???? its not fun trying to keep a wound from being infected when its continually reopened before it can heal.
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Aug 19, 2020
ds #53 not mr. songz
screenshots been shared. booties been ate. racial slurs been slung.
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Aug 18, 2020
ds #52 p.s. its about you
yikes! a messy addition to the previous daily shmay
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Aug 18, 2020
ds #52 shower spider
i sung love faces to a spider and am now qualified to talk about boundaries? lets go!
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Aug 15, 2020
ds #51 magic words
poof. disappeared. evaporated shmay. gone girl. peace out girl scout. missing in action. outta derr.
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Aug 14, 2020
ds#50 give an inch
a very chaotic way to tell a very short story.
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Aug 13, 2020
ds #49 awareness type beat
the untethered soul has a few fabulous points that are worth grinding past the pretentious vibes. loneliness and other tings
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Aug 12, 2020
ds #48 made it home
grateful. very grateful.
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Aug 12, 2020
ds #47 with or without you
u know the vibes! once again i am asking you to get on the right side of history before history gets made. once again i am questioning why mfs who probably couldnt build a bear at build-a-bear workshops are giving instructions. mercury must be in leo darling
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Aug 11, 2020
ds#46 join us
maybe its just me but i want to have some direct control over what i leave on this earth. imagine if nobody knew i thought about quantum physics bc i never talked to myself bout it on a podcast. if you dont wanna publish your stuff, go stan Black content! preferably non-problematic, non GOP stuff
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Aug 10, 2020
ds #45 left sock, left shoe
shake things up
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Aug 8, 2020
ds #44 radio ramble
ok brace urself we talking time and entropy and subatomic configurations and radio and death and consciousness. ready go.
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Aug 7, 2020
ds #43 WAP (uncensored)
shut up, shut the hell up. and pls keep my podcast away from your kids
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Aug 6, 2020
ds#42 bias balance
failed or failure?
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Aug 5, 2020
ds #41 customer service calls
s/o Jeff 1 & 2, Keisha & Nate. these folks may not know they've impacted me deeply, but they have!
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Aug 5, 2020
ds #40 i've been distracted
alexa play do it by chloe x halle. come, lets have a monotone chit chat about a pattern ive observed. act like you belong in the bad bitch club so you can come kick it with me, my soul, ur soul, God and flo milli
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Aug 1, 2020
ds #39 "ADHD is" STFU
bruh i cant take no more
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Aug 1, 2020
ds #38 hack the cycle
so much is going on in the world, learn to direct ur energy
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Jul 29, 2020
ds #37 post nap whining
sometimes i wanna be bad
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Jul 26, 2020
ds #36 the 5g conspiracy
aht aht aht, dont get defensive. get curious please.
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Jul 24, 2020
ds #35 sleepy gibberish
theres a point buried somewhere in this episode, i am tired
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Jul 21, 2020
ds #34 grey matter & postmortem
before and after. i dont know what to say. you'll wanna adjust the volume for the second part.
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Jul 19, 2020
ds #33 spend it wisely
you can tell im out of practice speaking outloud because of all the "ums" and "you knows" 🤢 the material is there so deal with my humanity.
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Jul 17, 2020
how
losing kobe, breonna, george, naya, pop smoke, a man i follow on twitter, delaney
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Jul 15, 2020
ds #32 coonye 2020
misguided ass fools
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Jun 17, 2020
ds #31 unpacking the tl pt 1
so much. love on bw today. im tired.
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Jun 3, 2020
ds #whatever what is worse than the truth
consequences of censored schools, yt guilt and intentional ignorance. this didn't go as planned but thats life. excuse quality, decided to go live on DP instagram and record at the same time. go look up shit stop hiding.
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May 27, 2020
PSA to non-black ppl at this time.
rest in peace george floyd. if you think you get to tell people how to feel youre insane.
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May 25, 2020
ds#29 avoid or create
not choosing is a choice against the natural way of life.
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May 23, 2020
ds #28 her bffs killed ahmaud
someone who had the #1 song in the (world?) spends their rich person free time creating a safe space to be worshipped by white supremacists that live in their moms basements. ITS NOT OK. people are DYING. fuck doja.
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May 23, 2020
ds #27 stan culture side effects
cancel culture is just the evidence, the crime is stanning. and lets be honest, did we think doja was flaw af and using black culture? fasho, did we think she was a mascot for alt-right online chats???
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May 21, 2020
ds #26 the magic sandwich principle
go be your bossed up, glo'd up, best self... and see what happens. focus on playing your role and being in the right movie. leave the rest of the sandwich to the magic ight?
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May 19, 2020
ds #25 clown stans
yall legit let snitchn9ne come out and get a top record, ludacris is rapping about r.kelly, who does any of this help
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May 14, 2020
ds #24 s/o charles
i dont *hate* y'all. i just dont want to deal with y'all. somebody go wife up my bro charles
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May 14, 2020
ds #23 feedback
"asking for the feedback i'll give it like janet" x h.e.r.
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May 11, 2020
ds #22 doing good
God is mad resourceful. do you and mans will find a way to use you in a miracle
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May 10, 2020
ds #21 self exploration ramble
"im organic, not organized. im informal, not incompetent." - Caroline Wanga
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Apr 21, 2020
ds #20 its not a problem
word to shannon sharpe. enjoy this quote from Designing Your Life by Bill Burnett & Dave Evans
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Apr 13, 2020
ds #19 america deserves tr*mp
ok hear me out... (well unless you are allergic to recognizing privilege or trickle up accountability or angry/fouljbut its late. its a long ramble. get what you need out of it. and treat this shit like you want fonald dump to treat it.